My purpose in this paper is to examine the complex process of the formation of a white female subjectivity of Janet Schaw in Journal of a Lady of Quality (1774-6). Interestingly, the subjectivity of Schaw, who traveled from Scotland to the West Indies, North Carolina, and Portugal, in the years 1774 to 1776, can neither be reduced to the notion of the female as colonized object, nor to the example of the white female escaping from a patriarchal society. Starting with the analysis of her description of the landscape, I examine her impulse to fictionalize her colonial experience with the aestheticized gaze. Drawing on her strategy of fictionalizing the landscape and making herself a female spectator, I explore her aesthetic facilitation of colonial domination with the interplay of sympathy and "de-emotionalization" of the landscape and its natives, which contests and at the same time endorses imperialism in the complicated racial and gender politics. This analysis of Schaw`s female subjectivity shows that her strategy of containment of imperialism in Antigua, and her attempt to reconcile the problems of colonial dominance are the ideological product of the imaginary solution to her conflicting female subjectivity.