“Tosa Diary” by 'Kinotsurayuki' was written around 935, and is believed to be Japan's first living diary literature. “Gyechuk Diary”, which author is unknown, was written in 1623 shortly after the 'Injo Banjeong', and is recognized for pioneering Hangeul diary literature along with “Byeongja Diary”. The contents of “Tosa Diary” and “Gyechuk Diary” are various. However, “Tosa Diary” focuses on missing his dead daughter. While “Gyechuk Diary” focuses on the Inmokdaebi’s grudge against deaths of her father and young son Yeongchangdaegun. Both texts reveal the most acute problem of death all the time. The actual authors of both texts are not interested in chronological time and the facts that exist in history. Through self- contradictory writing, authors are trying to freely use what they want to reveal in the texts. “Tosa Diary” focuses on maximizing the death of daughter, “Gyechuk Diary” focuses on maximizing the death of son. Actual authors of both texts circuitously give prominence to “Onna” and “Nain” and represent them as narrators. This study investigates to find out the problems of death of actual authors, which authors try to express through “Onna” and “Nain”.
Both actual authors forget painful memories in the text and don't cling to new events or memories that give them happiness. On the contrary, the most painful death is repeated in many ways in the text. It can be interpreted as Thanatos that repeats the return to a place of pain rather than chasing pleasure beyond Sigmund Freud's assumed principle of pleasure, and also can be interpreted as Jouissance by Jaques Lacan. 'Kinotsurayuki' suffered from the death of his guardians, who were the pillars of his life, and 'Inmokdaebi' suffered from the death of Yeongchangdaegun. But 'Kinotsurayuki' and 'Inmokdaebi' continue to return to the scene through recollection, not turning away from the pain. Shortly, tragedy transforms into an acceptable value and is repeated over and over again. The reason for returning to a place of pain is to somehow reduce the amount of excessive energy that is difficult to accommodate in the mind. Both authors’ obsessions to repeat of the two are understood as a kind of struggle for eternal rest by repeating the trauma situation. It is the source of the urge to return to minerals as Freud claims, and what Lacan calls joy and desire to head to Jouissance.