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Doris Lessing has repeatedly written about her parents throughout her literary career, and published works about her father including “My Father”(1963) and Alfred and Emily(2008). Her father, a wounded veteran of the First World War, has been depicted as a flat character who always talks about his wooden leg and the trenches, where his comrades were all killed. Lessing confesses there is a hiatus, a lack, or a blur between her parents and herself, and she cannot understand their uncomfortable relationship. According to Judith Herman`s trauma study, the first step to help victims to overcome their trauma is to diagnose the symptoms, and, then, to lead them and their family to remember and mourn their memories. This paper uses family trauma, mainly due to her father`s lost leg, to follow Lessing`s writing through remembering and mourning the past of her father. While she describes her father`s obsessive talking about the trenches, she comes to realize that the best of her father died in the war and his spirit was crippled by it, and finally she suffers the same experience. Her father was known as a romanticist who knew how to enjoy watching the sky, the mountains and the stars, but through Lessing`s remembrance and mourning, one inconvenient fact emerges that she has the same and repeated memory about a ``tickling`` game with her father in her childhood. So, this fact disturbs Lessing`s intention to conclude the stories about her father as she mentioned that Alfred and Emily would be her last work. Even this leads to create a hiatus in the story of Alfred and Emily, where she deleted the war which was considered to destroy the life of her parents, as well as she deleted Lessing herself by marrying her parents to different people. Lessing seems to write about her father in “My Father” and Alfred Emily, but nevertheless the story is about herself as a secondary or vicarious victim in the family trauma. This is why she has been writing about her parents not only unconsciously but also consciously all her life.